Saturday, January 05, 2008

Combustion of Spontaneity

To be both mercurial and indecisive is an extreme pain (without pleasure, mind you). I've often taken decisions in less time than it would take a user process to switch to kernel mode (well not really, since those syscall/sysenter instructions came into place). But then I've also stood on cross paths, deciding which way to go, taking a step in one direction, retreating, taking a step in a different direction, retreating again, and so on. Literally. This usually happens when I start thinking about the decision and weigh it against the other choices. No, shouldn't be done. Especially when one is as spontaneous as nitric acid on copper. To reflect when one can still retreat is something that needs to be avoided. Forget the recent past and live in the moment. Sigh, rarely happens, but when it does, it's such a treat for the heart.